The Colours In My World

thoughts and myself.

O-hishashiburi desu!
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sayami12
Hey! It's been a looooong time since I've visited my livejournal and a lot of things have changed since my last post (June 23, 2013!).

Wondering where I went and why I've dropped of the LJ radar?

Well, since 2013, I've transitioned from YFC to SFC, letting go of my service areas and just savouring the moment of being an SFC member, ploughed through second and third years of university, written my dissertation, said goodbye to my uni friends, graduated (kaching!), done a lot of contemplating, travelled around and generally be lazy for a few months and gotten a job! So now, I'm finally a working adult - though I really miss studying and am determined to get back to studying either by going for a masters or getting into medschool - and life is just sort of falling into a routine of work in the weekdays and doing whatever on the weekends.

Thoughts on working life

Working life... hmmm... I'd say it is not what I imagined but it has been good so far and it is interesting - which is good! But to be honest, I don't see myself staying in my workplace for a long time. You see, when I started working in the lab it was interesting and I learned a lot of things, I was happy but at the back of my mind I wanted to move on and find a better job. I may sound ambitious when I say this but I know that this job is just a stepping stone for something better because I know that I can do more and I am capable of getting the job that I really want! (Self motivation go!) So yea, working life was hard to get used to at first but as time went on, I sort of got into the routine and it's great because I finally have money to spend! (Goodbye stingy student life!)

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Children are cute, adorable and so nice to play with but once they cry everything suddenly turns pretty grim.

But! what can you do but still love them?


Time-skip to June!
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Hi people! It's been a really long time since I've posted something here. I was busy, stressed and have been going to many places as usual. I just finished my exam month so I'm currently in my vacation mode. In short, I am very relaxed, very lazy and feeling like I don't want to do anything. Unfortunately, that's not what life has in store for me. Even though university has already finished for this academic year, I still have a lot to do for it. So for this summer my plan is, to finish my personal statement and CV to apply for my research project next year, wait for my exam results, apply for the UKCAT test, work, go on vacation with the family to ROME!!! , sit the UKCAT test, work, hopefully be able to join the YFC European conference on August, organise my files and finally the academic year starts again. So you see, it's not really a very relaxing holiday - except of course the vacation to Rome :)

This is it for now. Hopefully, I'll be able to post more stuff here now that I have more free time from school. *fingers crossed*

Ciao! :)


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Ola mi amigo! mi amiga! :)

I hope I got that greeting right! How have you all been

To say the least, this evening was interesting. Some of my friends and I went out to have dinner in an arabic restaurant called Al Batta. I remember going there before during Guy Fawkes night last year with some of my other friends after watching the fireworks at the castle park. It was late at night but we didn't want to go back to our respective houses yet and so, we went in search for somewhere to have coffee in and hang out. But, that is a story for another day.

Back to tonight's dinner! As I was saying, tonight was an interesting night. Why? Simply because of the topics we discussed throughout the night. We talked about different things from our love life - which in my case is very quick since I have none - to their cultures. To give you some background, the friends I was with today are from arab/muslim countries thus, their culture is drastically different from mine since I came from a south east asian/catholic country. In their culture, arranged marriage is practiced naturally and some of them don't even get to have a choice whether to accept or not. They get proposals from men (sometime even their cousins) sent to their families to ask for their hand and it is hard for them to be in a relationship -- especially one that is met with disapproval from both of their families. And even though some of them is not having any arranged marriage, they are given pressure by their families to find someone and get married

This made me think

For me, all these talks about arranged marriage is something that I never even considered. Yes, I had written stories about it and thought of it but it was something I knew would never happen to me. I didn't even know anyone that seriously go through the process of arranged marriage -- till now that is. And that made it real. It made me realize that it actually happen and that people do go through with it. It wasn't just a thought in my head or something I read or something I watched on TV. It actually does happen! It's real! And then, I thought I am very lucky. I don't know if it's right to feel this way but I'm just glad that I don't have to worry about such things and feel pressured about getting married. I don't even have anyone right now, never mind getting married! I have to have a boyfriend for that to happen! 

But nevertheless, I just hope and pray that my friends will have a future filled with happiness and love with whomever they end up with, whether it be arranged or not


The Chatterbox that can't seem to stop talking.
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Do you ever get that feeling that you're talking too much? Or whenever you open your mouth it's all about you, you, you? Yes?

Well, actually that's what I'm feeling right now... I think I'm too self-centred that I dominate the conversation too much. I've had this feeling since before and I'm sort of getting down about it. So what I thought I should do was to maybe, try and not talk about myself as much and let the other person do the talking. 

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Of Finding A Decent House
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January to March is the time of the year wherein most University students living in the university accommodation panic and search for houses to live in next year. Suffice to say, I am one of those students. I feel like we are rushing into things and I want more time. I don't know... me and my friend just went to a house viewing and we really liked the house and after we got out, we thought "all right, this is it!" But then after talking to my mom, going back through the house pictures, and looking at what to look for in a house, I'm starting to think twice about it. Yes, the location is great and the house itself is nice and has its charm but now I'm worried about the security of the house and yea... I'm really anxious and confused right now that I can't even write a proper entry. *sigh* 

Laziness...Spammers... Uni!
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sayami12

The title doesn't make sense but this is about those things up there. haha

As all of you may have noticed, I haven't been posting anything on this journal. Actually it may have already been a month or so since I've last updated it. Well, as usual, Saya has been lazy and it's not just with LJ, it continued on to my University duties. Some may say, or rather I agree with this my self, that a good student spends time to at least read about her subjects (in my case lectures) and do all the things that needs to be done (Homeworks, lab reports, worksheets, group assignments... etc.) before the deadline. Ok, well I do the last part, because my Uni is harsh on that one. If ever we pass something late, we won't get any credits for it and so it would have been a waste of time. What I'm guilty of, is the first part and maybe not doing my lab reports when I still have time to do it, instead of cramming in the last second. As you can tell, I, Saya, am not really being a good student. 

Since, this is like a confession (of sorts), I will be honest. It seems that I am eternally distracted by my computer, which is ironic, because I can't do my lab reports unless I use it. (Darn it Lappy! Why are you so adorable and so hard to resist?!) And thus, all of my Uni works has been pushed aside that easily. If that doesn't make me lazy and shows my lack of self-control, I don't know what to can call it. 

So, enough of that! Hopefully, I'd figure out how I can manage myself and my time more efficiently by next week. On to spammers we go. I have been noticing them a lot recently, and somehow, I am not amused. What can you gain by spamming?! It's annoying and doesn't make any sense at all. If you are doing this, I suggest you stop. It's a complete waste of time and effort! Unless, well you're some kind of program that was designed for this exact purpose or you're just a lonely person on the borderline of insanity. Either way, STOP! 

*phew* I shall stop ranting as well. haha.

Ciao!

P.S. I love Skip Beat! :D


Writer's Block: Hello, World!
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One of my earliest memory was when my Mom was teaching me the alphabet. I remember sitting on her lap, book on my hands. And we were in the living room. It was a really nice day, the sun was up and the weather wasn't that hot. We were reading the alphabet along with the voice in the cassette player. I don't exactly know how old I was then but I was sure it was before I've gone to any kind of nursery school or kindergarten. I must have been around 2-3 years old? 

Aye so that's one of my earliest memory. 
What is your earliest memory?

A very Happy New Year to you!
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Hey there! First off, I'd like to say a Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year to everyone! Hope you made the best of 2011 and have the most awesome and blessed year ahead of you!

Now that the greeting of merriment is over, I shall tell you about the tale of when I went to London and spent a day out with my friends. Haha. Nah! I'm just going to recount what I did yesterday till the first second of this New Year. ;)

And so without further ado, I'm just going to list the things I did. I woke up at 6.30 am and stopped my alarm and went back to sleep. An hour later I opened my eyes and realised I'm going to be late in meeting up my friends at the train station at 8. As luck may have it, I was late. We took the 8.30 train to London and headed straight to Shaftsbury Theatre to buy tickets for the show Rock Of Ages! (which, I totally love). We then walked to Leicester Square to eat at TGI Fridays but we had to wait and wander around for a while as we were too early and it hasn't opened yet. After eating and exchanging our Christmas presents, we headed back to the theatre, going into various shops as we went - I even bought myself a shirt from one of the shops. Once inside the theatre we were very excited to watch the show. It turned out really good and very entertaining. (It''s a great show, go watch it if you're in London!). Afterwards, we headed back to the underground to go back home. When I got home I played  guitar hero band with my brother and Dad. Ate a lot of food. We prayed the rosary as a family. Watched the London Countdown on TV and went to sleep.

So that's it. Nothing much happened but I really cherish these moments that I get to spend with my whole family and friends. Which make me feel so blessed to be granted such wonderful people around me. No New Year's resolution were formed but I know this year would be a great one! ;)

I just want to cry.
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Literally. I'm so frustrated with myself that I can't help but endlessly want to cry. Which brings me to contemplate whether I'm actually going insane right now or am I already over the brink? One minute I was laughing, and the next crying. It's just, I can't seem to control myself. I know I've got deadlines to meet and so much work to do but why? Why, can't I stop whatever this is that is distracting me so much and just get on with my work? 

Argh!

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